One day Some day

I feel like i have lost my fire. a light that has lit the way for me for 10 years is fading, i gave my heart to a man because i thought he would love me forever, and so it turns out i was wrong, he is a man that dose not love. and dose not care. he is a man that has'nt kissed me in over two months, and yet tells me he loves me. a man that says he wants to be with me, but never takes the time to do it. he is man of fake promises, of cruel lies about how he loves me. my fire is going out. sometimes i think maybe theres no such thing. i was a fool all this time. this is it? i dont know. god i dont know. i just want him to want me. just love me.

I just want to write!

I just wanna fly, let me out, let me go and let me run. I'm not meant for this. i want so much more. I'm so scared that i cant do it. i cant make it on my own and yet staying here is eating away at me. how much longer can i live without love, pretending like this is all I'm ever gonna have. dream of a world that never was meant for me. is this all that it is? i want so much more. one day ill fly away, and leave for a better thing and leave the things that keep me here, ill run and never look back, one day ill get my strength ill get the boy and live a wonderful life. and all this will be a dream of a life that i never really did have, One day.